SO FED UP

when i originally started writing this blog, i was going to write about how, when someone is not listening to me i lose it. Someone constantly saying ; huh, or what, makes me wanna kill them. I think its one of the most disrespectful things you can do to someone; your basically letting them know you dont give a shit about what their talking about. I think it is a problem, reacting barbaracly, uncontrolably filled with rage whenever somone would interupt me. However this is my fourth attempt at writing the SAME BLOG! So now, i have something new that makes my blood boil, accidentally erasing an assignment, especially a blog. one minute ur finished congadulating yourself on a job well done, the next minute, your stunned; in denial about what may have just happened. Its a feeling of being helpless, you know its gone, thats it, theres nothing you could possibly do about it. I throw my laptop, in disbelief that this is still real. If this is a world where my blogs can be erased magically, then surely my laptop can be tossed without being broken, right. im affraid of making this blog to long based on the fact that im only increasing my chances of something going horribly wrong again.